No. I feel like I don’t. 

Since when was it a crime to figure out what you enjoyed doing and pursued it, even if it were unstable, even if it didn’t get you “far” according to society’s standards, even if it didn’t get you high salaries. What if I just found what I loved doing, and did it for a period of time, maybe for the rest of my life, like maybe be a school counsellor because I’m good at listening to people’s problems and analyzing behaviors and love giving advice, because I want to help people help themselves because that’s the hardest thing to do right now, and nobody’s really there for anybody anymore, or what if I wanted to be one of those daycare sitters that teach and play with tons of kids each day, basking in their smiles and innocence, and being happy in simple things, even if it’s not much but it’s something I want to do, will I have the guts to pursue such “dead-ended” thing, or what if I want to be a writer in journalist column because writing is who I am, or perhaps who I want to be and I want to edit and read and write for magazines and articles and papers for people out there, just because it’s a passion of mine, not because it’s easy but because I actually WANT to do it. See, I don’t know who I want to be when I grow up but I KNOW I don’t want to be one of those adults who stick to their career path being successful but unhappy because they don’t have passion in what they’re doing, they’re afraid of leaving their good comfortable SECURE positions for a little sense of unfamiliarity and expansion of horizons to find out that maybe there’s something more out there that they wanna do, that they’ll LOVE doing, and even if it doesn’t pay well, it’s alright and it doesn’t matter because they’re HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY; I want to be brave enough to be able to pursue what I want, even if it’s not ideal for everybody else, I want to MOVE and keep MOVING and keep finding out what I love and I can’t do that if I stay in this little box, behind the line that is the perimeter for what is “stable” and will land me a career in the future— no no no, I will explore. I don’t wish to stick in this one path that’s been handed to me all my life. The question’s always asked “Why are you in Management?” and the answer’s always been “It’s the course I got into” and never “because it’s something I’m interested in, something I love, something I really wish to pursue and see myself as in the future”, just always a path that maybe was chosen for me and I want to be old enough to choose my paths for myself and grow with insights in making the wrong decisions, all I know is I don’t think I like Management although I’m getting by, what if it’s not the one, I certainly don’t feel much love for it and that scares me, that I might be settling and I’m NOT a settler, so I’m going to see if I can get myself to other things, like writing, psychology, philosophy, literature, arts— things that interest me but haven’t pursued enough, because I like choices, I like options and I don’t wish for Management to be the only one that’s standing me by. I want to enjoy what I’m going to be in the future. I want to be passionate about my work and who I am, and although this is the fork-road that seemingly determines everything from hereon, I will not let it be. 

Though there’s the pressure that I need to earn lots of money for family, I promise that I will love my work and be passionate about it, and if it comes between high pay and doing something I love, I will always choose the latter— for me, first and foremost for me. I need to owe myself at least that.